Fun adventures with Shaylee & Chelsea

So today was a pretty kick ass epic day. I got A LOT of sleep last night so I had a HUGE amount of energy plus to add to it I had a large mt dew at work so I was pretty hyped up all freaking morning. When I got off work I renewed my tags (finally) so now I don't have to dodge the 5-O anymore cause my car is LEGAL. Don't ask why some words are CAPS lol. After that I met up with the wifey Chelsea and we got some bomb ass Mexican food aka our native dish. Then Shaylee my super secret lover met us there and was supposed to help us eat the huge ass plate of Carne Asada fries  ( for the gringos that don't know what that means its pretty much just fries with steak cheese guacamole and sour cream on them aka a heart attack waiting to happen lol) and she freaking didn't so as the fat girl I am I was disappointed that I had to waste food. After that we hit up the mall to look for baby stuff cause Chels ( my wife) is PREGGERS YAY. Then Shay ( my super secret lover) bought some expensive ass jeans but they are way cute and shirt. We ate AGAIN (keep in mind Chels is eating for two I'm fat and shaylee well like i said she didn't help us at all with the fries that bitch)(jk i love her) anyways it was delish then We made chels try on some maternity pants with a belly (cause she doesn't have one yet) and she looked so freaking cute lol. Then me and shay tried one on and shay's boobs got smaller then the size B she already is and well I just looked fat so i'm never getting pregnant lol. After we came back and watched some Shane Dawson on youtube.com  (check him out he is AMAZING) and laughed a lot then chels left and shay is sitting here correcting me like damn English teacher and I'm about to deck her in her effing FACE well I'm off to bed and kicking shaylee out of my house so ta ta and sweet dreams to u all.

memory lane

So I took a trip down memory lane tonight with my old friend Alex. It was awesome we talked about the old times and the could of been's and the should of's and where we are now. I missed him a lot and I was so glad to see him. I felt like I was back in Jr high again. He was the guy that I have been through a lot with and was always there for me. I do love him but not the way I love Brad. Im madly inlove with Brad and nothing will ever change that. Alex was my first love and he will always remain in my heart but Brad has my whole heart and that's just the way it is.

Trust

Why is it so hard to trust the person I love more then anything with my heart. I mean this guy as always been up front and open with me and tells me everything but I'm still scared to trust him 100% with my heart and I'm scared its gonna push him away. He tells me he loves me more then life itself and i believe him but he use to be a real player before we got together and I'm scared he'll go back to his old ways. I just wish I could quit worrying about losing him and focus more on keeping him. I hate getting like this and pushing away everything that means the most to me :(

party hardy :)

Its so awesome goin into work and finding out you have to go home an hour early so you don't go into over time and i also find out i have the weekend off

at my breaking point

why the hell do I even try. Everything I say or do causes him to be a sarcastic jerk. He is such a hypocrite he has done so much  worse when he was my age and I haven't even done like 90 percent of the shit he has done in his whole entire life. He needs to realize I'm a girl not some rough and rugged boy. I feel he would of been happier raising and having a son instead of a daughter. I need to be on my own cause living with him makes us fight cause I'm too much like my mom and living with my mom makes us fight cause I'm too much like my dad. I give up I don't know what to do any more. maybe I wasn't meant to please anyone cause I seem to mess up everything good I have :(

grrrr

Wanna know what I hate how girls sacrifice so damn much for the one they love but the guys sacrifice so little. Like i sacrifice my sleep just so I can stay up and talk to him but when i call him and get all settled in my bed so i can relax talk to him and just wind down from my day he is tired and goes to bed. Its like hello i fight sleep EVERY night waiting for your call (which comes in at 11 at the earliest)when I work all day and have to be up early the next to do it all over again but I do it cause talking to you relaxes me and helps me wind down. To make matters worse he doesnt have to get up early to go to work he does wake up to help his dad and do chores around the house but he gets huge breaks to take naps watch tv and relax before he goes to school. GRRR i tell you GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.........!!!!!!!!!$$$$@R!@T%T!^YT >=[

Mine and brads......

this is or scrap blog i made please check it out tell me what ya thing :)
http://s1042.photobucket.com/albums/b421/KiSsMePlZ2010/LoVe/Us-scrapbook/

♥♥♥LOVE ♥♥♥

I know people say there is no such thing as a perfect man but I beg to differ. I mean there is a perfect man out for every woman out there you just have to look. He may not seem perfect to everyone else but he was made perfect for you. I have found my perfect man and I couldn't be more happier. He is sweet,charming,loving,daring,rebellious,strong,dependable, and determined to keep a smile on my face. Every one tells me just wait a couple years things will change. Why is it that everyone has to try and bring me down from it. If I'm twitterpated and happily floating on cloud nine is it really necessary for you to come and blow it out from underneath me all because it changed for you and no one treats you the way I'm getting treated. Yes in the future it might change but I've seen people who have been married for like 60 years and they are as much in love with each other now then they were the day they met. Take my great grandparents for instance. They were married when my great grandma was either 14 or 16 and my grandma use to tell me how young he made her feel. Every time she would walk into the room he would just light up like god just sent him his best angel. When my great grandma got sick he was with her by her side till the day she passed. Always checking on her, making sure she ate and got her sleep, and taking her medicine. When she did sleep He was always checking on her just to kiss her forehead in case she slipped away in her sleep. I thought man if they can be so in love after so many years then there is hope of true love and the perfect man out there for every women. With my current bf I have never felt so much love being given to me. He tells me I'm beautiful at least twice a day, tells me he loves me every morning when he wakes, at the end of every phone call and text through out the day, and every night before he goes to bed. He also makes me smile and laugh at least once a day and does everything in his power and wont give up till he succeeds. He says to make me smile is his mission and it makes his day a lot brighter to see me smile. I will admit we are the annoying couple that every body hates to love cause we are so adorable and so nauseating at the same time but what can I say he makes me feel like we are in some kind of romance movie and I wouldn't change it for the world. Just remember every women has her prince charming out there somewhere you just have to kiss a few toads before you find him. :) Peace ♥ & :)

The confusion of men

So pretty much why the hell do men lie? Especially when you catch them lying you think it would just be easier for them to be like you know what you caught me I lied and I apologize but no cause that would be to easy. Honestly I would rather just hear the truth and talk it out right then and there then hear a lie then later on in the future here the truth and it causes a huge fight and all trust is broken so you either brake up or just stop trusting each other. The worst part about being lied to is knowing that you weren't worth the truth in the first place. Well enough of that rant I'm off to bed sweet dreams cyber land.

A smart man

A smart man once Sang the lyrics "parents are the same no matter time or place so to you kids all across the land there's no need to argue parents just don't understand" and damn was he right; way to be Will Smith.

Degrassi

So pretty much I just got done watching the season finale for my most favorite show ever Degrassi Season 10. I also saw the promo trailer for Season 11 already and I am so effing excited. Eclare was probably my favorite couple of the season :). Anyways Ya so I love the show dont know why but it is so so so sooooooo addicting :).

Life as we know it

Okay so i am twenty years old and currently struggling to make it in this crazy cycle we call life. I know all grown ups try to teach you that the world is tough and they do their best to prepare you in hopes you will succeed. Well, it seems as if in this modern day and age that having an education doesn't get you as far as your teachers or parents said it would at least not here in Utah. I thought once I graduated high school and received that parchment paper with my name on it clearly declaring that my future has officially begun I would be on the fast track to a career and going to college would just help me to succeed and push me further into my career of choice. I thought oh ya after graduation I'm so done with these high school minimum wage paying jobs and I how I couldn't wait to start my career in photography, or fashion design, or dance, or theater( like I said in my about me I have no idea where I wanna be in life yet) anyways back to reality I thought after graduation everything would be good. Then it happened, graduation day came. Tears were cried, diploma's were given out, tassels were switched over symbolizing our new start to our new future and goodbyes were said instead of see ya later's and reality was soon to set in. Little did we all know that if your parents weren't rich, you weren't LDS ( which don't get me wrong I have nothing wrong with the LDS religion because I was in fact baptized in the church just changed my beliefs), or knocked up by the time you turned 18 there wasn't much you could really do.
So this is how my story begun:

After I graduated I was dating this guy named Trent and at that time things were good. I graduated a year after my senior year cause well I was .75 credits behind so wasn't online to graduate with the rest of my class but hey I still did it. Anyways i was living with this boyfriend of mine at the time and I thought life was excellent. Finding a job after graduation was a lot harder then I expected but I finally found something i really did enjoy. I became a nanny for a beautiful family in Ogden Utah. I loved it but after about a year I wanted to go to college and being a nanny and going to college while trying to enjoy my adolescent life with family and friends just wasn't working plus I needed health benefits.  I was making excellent pay as a nanny for only being 19 at the time. After putting in my two weeks with the nanny job I started working as a baker for Maverick but that was a major down cut and I could no longer afford my rent which eventually got me evicted and I had to move in with my dad. When I tried finding help like applying for food stamps, and apply for housing the first question they asked me was do you have any children when I answered no I do not they would either reply with Then there isnt anything we can do for you or have you tried talking to your bishop .

Which brings me to my previous statement. Because of the fact I decided to be safe in high school and wait to have kids I can not receive any help from anyone because children are not involved. Then they say to talk to my bishop what if I'm not LDS then who do I talk to I shouldn't have to be LDS to receive a little help. Now I'm stuck in a rut because I'm a christian and not a struggling mom. What is this world coming to.